The regret is eating me very deeply. I need distraction! Maybe that's why I am doing what I am doing nowadays. This kind of situation requires time for me to heal and once it is healing, I must learn to step outside the circle.

But if I were to compare my fate with someone I know, I am very inferior in terms of endurance and tolerance. She has both negative and positive impacts on me. Her endurance, bravery and independence really roars, making me feel both jealous and proud of her at the same time. I will feel jealous because I know that she will excel in life if only she was born with a better family support. Also, she makes me feel proud of her because she is strong. Aye. She is a strong young lady. Her characteristics and actions are examplary. Well not all, but most.

I must learn to accept my fate...