I never think that I would fall for someone like him. But I do now. I like him. Oh dear. This is not good. I must eradicate this feeling. Or else, this will affect my... For the first time I like someone whom I know (not by just status e.g. friend, but by mingling with him), whom I never think I would have romantical feeling towards him, whom I think I really.... know him. He is a very nice guy. The word 'nice' I am using has a very deep meaning although it seems a simple word. I just do not know how to underscore it more. I get slightly jealous when he is talking comfortably/joking with his female friends.

Maybe because he is everyone's friend. But I think I know now.. I am attracted to someone whom I can be really comfortable with. He has the humor, brain, maturity, rationality and I do not think I will get bored around him. In fact I do enjoy every second with him.

Oh dear I need to stop!!!!!! The more I think about this, the more more overpowering this emotion becomesl. I must.. MUST keep our relationship professional.

Although, he is short like me, quite plump, small eyes, I never ever consider that as a turnover. What really turn me down are that he still drinks... even when he already pledged to change. He ate khinzir, gambles occasionally and didn't go friday prayers etc. And i do not think he is a virgin too.. The flaws are too huge for me to accept unless he is non muslim. But I just like him.. No... I do not.. and must not like him!!!!!!