Farewell

We had farewell assembly today. I felt nothing, stiff, no emotions just like a cold dracula. I was neither looking forward for the farewell nor the otherwise. It was just like my any normal day, waiting for lessons to end and just let the nature plays the role. And my JC life, I just find it's so complex, where there are no specific descriptions for it because all that I can think of will just contradict with each other. For example, there's a moment where I feel that I belong with my school and mates, then next moment, i just feel detached. And worst of it, the shift of emotions is just so abrupt. It can be very hard for me to conform with these fluctuations of feelings that makes me just give up and decided to go solo in school. I have no issue with going solo because I would rather remain quiet and walk away alone, not bothering about what others might say than putting up with pretention that I am ok and enjoying my moment with my peers, when actually I am not. However there are other issues that MAY arise such as the birth of speculations from my classmates about my odd behaviour. I won't be surprise if they find me arrogant for not mixing with them so much. Well, I would like to correct the misconception here. They can find me arrogant, anti-social etc. But that is not the case because the fact that I try to work it out by trying to minggle with them, seems to be superflous efforts. Simply, it doesn't work. Is either we do not have enough chemistry like I have with my sec. school mates or there are implicit flaws in our relationships. Also, I cannot stand secrets. There are so many secrets that are shared amongst them, which I'm not aware of, and they assume it's ok if I do not know of it because it will not affect me (I hope so). But that is so wrong. They may think I'm not interested (Yes I'm not interested anyway because I hate secrets) since I do not pry. It's just not me; prying secrets: NO way! but I think it is courtesy to share whatever they talked about. There is a hadith that says "When three people are together, two of them must not whisper to each other without letting the third hear, until others are present, because it would hurt him.". Get the rough idea? And it's not just secrets, there are more. Besides, I don't like to force myself in, to blend with the group. I just find that's pathetic and desperate as compared to be a loner. Thus i'd rather be a loner than desperado. However, I recognise and find their efforts to bond the class commendable, sometimes. You may wonder why am I saying all this? Well, the gist here is just to let you feel or know what's like to be in my shoe for an ubiquitous day in my current school life.

But when the farewell comes to an end, during the party organised by Mr Wong, I came to my realisation that my life in PJ is not that bad after all. I do love my classmates. They have been kind and fun. My teachers are helpful even when most of the time, i kept chastising their lessons due to some unsatisfactions. Nevertheless, I will miss their lessons so much especially Mr. Wong's class (That is so hypocrite of me becuse I used to hate his lessons so much). I find his class very useful indeed and professionally executed. He can be funny at times and sometimes 'macam nak sepak je' to his immature control of emotions. Thank you Mr Wong for teaching us.( WoW I can actually feel that I really mean what I said.) and for the muffin too. He went all the way to Tanjong Pagar to buy the choc muffins for his students from I believe to be a boutique-confectionaries, selling hot muffins, untill he came to the extent of promoting it to us. Shop: Chocolate & Spice. In my opinion, the muffin tastes ordinary.
Besides Mr wong, I will miss MDM LINA and MR OSMAN too! The rest, I do not think so. And lAstly, I will miss my classmates too. It is a bit sad that we had the last lesson together for today. maybe not the last lesson because we still have extra class during the break. Wadde.
Thank you Liza for the photo, it is cute and money-saving for us. :p Thank you Hisham for the card and lollipop, it's touching haha;P Thank you Hassan for the picture, that distracted me till my bus drove past me hah;P Thank you V for the polaroid, I will keep it in my purse;p (How Mr wong knew about it? hmm curious.)


Some quotes for today from the motivational session by Mr wong, that I find very relevant.

- I see beauty around me. (I ain't kidding. that is why I like to look around and appreciate them.)

- Rest if you must, but do not ever quit.

- Everyday


lesson learnt today:

-"The happiest people don't have the best of everything. they just make the best of everything."

" Savour the coffee but not the cups"

It makes me realise one thing. I must go for my dreams.
From another hadith, "Riches are not from and abundance of wordly goods but from a contented mind."

Then i have decided that one day by 28 I hope, I can own a piece of land overseas, and cultivate them. I want to be involved in agriculture and farming if possible. Before i reached 40, I would like to join Captain Watson and kuncu kuncu to stop the killng of whales and sharks' fins-stripping.

Overall I agree with my principal. My experience in PJ has been bittersweet.
(Bittersweet symphony by the Verve)
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Nelly Furtado is wonderful. She's so pretty and fit. I love her songs.
So too Anna nalick's song. Breathe
2 AM.

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