I've never felt like a loser in a yawning hole before when preparing and doing my examinations. I'm feeling it now. I've been feeling this awful emotion since Tuesday.

I know I will fail 4/5 of the subjects.

Ya Allah, Kau terangi lah hati hambamu ini Ya Allah. Amin

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Chem paper has already ruined my mood. This cina man at Giant at noon, irritated me more. He really set fire to my racism that is already volatile. He carried pork and wanted to jump in my queue. But I reached first. Then he looked at me, sengih sengih. He was standing next to me. BUT I reached First. Then he showed me his one item, minced PORK, and said "Only one thing." Trying to convey to me that I should let him go first. Excuzzzzmua.. that counter did not have any signboard about "Express counter" or "Only one item". Tak Sabar nya bangsa! Then to his dismay.. or shall I say Pai-sey..., I showed him my ONE ITEM and said " Yah... One item!" Cekik darah..

erghh tomorrow: Physics paper. (What am I doing here????)

P.s. My racism is shift-able and fluctuates. Sometimes I can also dislike my own race. So dear chinese, don't worry. I have good friends and classmates wo are Chinese.