Morning, I LOVE YOU

2011-10-31T23:03:00.002+08:00

Don't miss The launching of Timbre's XXXXXXXX / Mrs. XXXXXXX on 16 Dec at Pasir Ris Park.

2011-10-30T09:35:00.000+08:00

She's a woman who men's adore. Even I adore her. ahhhhhhh.

Rezeki masing masing..

I need a life. Need to make use of my youth to the max.

Will kickstart on 1st Nov.

2011-10-05T21:39:00.002+08:00

Wondering whatcha doing right now?

For you

I LIKE YOU!

2011-09-26T21:50:00.002+08:00

I need to lose weight. I have to set a tasklist. which I must follow. Set a target formyself and work towards it.

This Oct, A lot of money is going to be used up.

- About 30% of my salary is going to my cousin (Cari penyakit sendiri - I caused her bumper to crack and got loose.) :-/
-20 % shopping, 25% fr necessities, save some for the extraction of my decaying tooth, daily expemses, saving for the future.

2011-09-23T22:21:00.002+08:00

It's my 397th post. All odd no., i like!

Anyway.there are some things that I learnt today:

- The importance of being GRATEFUL
- You don't need a degree to go far
- Time management and hardwork are key to success and happiness, which is hard to achieve.

An epitome for the last point would be Tori Spelling. Gosh. She is a verybusy woman, mother of 2, author of a couple of books, jewellery designer, very pro active, always make fantastic plans for her son's birthday, surprise for her husband and turn them into reality. I admire woman like her. I want to be like her. I want to grow old gracefully like Madonna and multi task like Tori. They are indeed 'Superwomen'.

2011-09-18T19:14:00.002+08:00

Hmm. I am going to change my course now. A little bit of modification, should be able to prevent anything bad from happening in the future. I hope.

2011-09-18T19:07:00.003+08:00

It's my 395th post. I should be liking this post as the term is an odd number and I love odd no.

But something happened today which I do not wish to share with anyone.

And now I am afraid of several things.

I am going to be exttttttttrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa cccccccautious and careful from now.

2011-09-15T22:48:00.002+08:00

ERRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH. Kena air. rosak lah macam gini. I hate it when my things that I bought spoilt. It's nt cheap dey. ERGGh heart pain.

I dun care, I am so going to town tmr for shopping. but how much must I put aside for shopping.? My pay is little.

2011-09-15T00:58:00.002+08:00

I do not heart Joe Jonas.

But guys who have such tasteful taste in their clothing style like Joe has displayed in the video, really impress and wow me. <3

2011-09-11T21:42:00.001+08:00

Ergh. He's on my mind every now and then.

2011-09-10T20:27:00.002+08:00

Monday will be a foggy day for me. I will be stuck in a knotted task line.

Anyway. How I wish that this coming Monday-Tuesday will pass quickly. And at the same time I wish that this month will pass slowly as next month will be the last time I'll be seeing him (I hope not). On his departure day, my eyes will be wet, my mind will be clouded, my heart will be on the verge to burst with sadness and my mouth will be mute. I will miss him.

2011-09-04T19:45:00.002+08:00

I wish this coming week is going to pass vey quickly!

2011-09-01T21:45:00.002+08:00

The regret is eating me very deeply. I need distraction! Maybe that's why I am doing what I am doing nowadays. This kind of situation requires time for me to heal and once it is healing, I must learn to step outside the circle.

But if I were to compare my fate with someone I know, I am very inferior in terms of endurance and tolerance. She has both negative and positive impacts on me. Her endurance, bravery and independence really roars, making me feel both jealous and proud of her at the same time. I will feel jealous because I know that she will excel in life if only she was born with a better family support. Also, she makes me feel proud of her because she is strong. Aye. She is a strong young lady. Her characteristics and actions are examplary. Well not all, but most.

I must learn to accept my fate...

2011-08-21T02:38:00.004+08:00

Had a wonderful night and morning today. Just got back from JB. Went there with my awesomess cousins.

Love it love it love it.

Aiyo.. lum kemas bilik.. nanti bapak saya bising lagi.. :-\

2011-08-17T21:06:00.000+08:00

I like... these colurs. I love everything here..

Urban-chic Punk by erikaliz featuring a silk crepe dress

Reed Krakoff silk crepe dress
$1,390 - net-a-porter.com

NW3 slim fit jacket
£69 - johnlewis.com

Giuseppe Zanotti pointed toe boots
$1,055 - net-a-porter.com

Christian Louboutin clutch bag
$995 - net-a-porter.com

Marc by marc jacobs jewelry
$42 - couture.zappos.com

Spiked jewelry
$20 - amazon.com

NARS Duo Eyeshadow Rated R One Size
$33 - nordstrom.com

Beauty Is Life Lipstick - Orange 12 w
$28 - barneys.com

Amazon.com: OPI Brights Collection 6pc Nail Lacquer Hot Pink Green...
$33 - amazon.com

Aluminus Black Metal Wall Frame
£22 - habitat.co.uk

2011-08-14T09:47:00.002+08:00

I must explore! Explore!

To discover more options.

Smile. Must smile.

To open more doors and welcome chances.

Must be tidy. Tidy!

To be a lady.

2011-07-25T23:03:00.002+08:00

I am so disappointed in you. I am trying my best to conceal my feeling and masked it with ignorance. I am trying to trace back and erase the feelings that are already developed, so that I do not feel the pain that much.

I never thought you are like this. One single action, speaks volume of you and the future holds. I shall not accept this unwise gesture of yours.

2011-07-24T20:12:00.003+08:00

200 bucks gone within 2hrs. i'm left with 100 bucks in my bank and 25 bucks on hand.

Must save money! Save money! Be thrifty..

I don't have a group! Im such a lonely soul in class. I hope I can ask this kakak in class tmr, i I can join her group. I have no choice but to thicken my face tmr if I want to survive in the class.

I dislike that chinese group except for one of its members whom is my friend. They really do not know how to engage people in grou discussion.
Poor indian American-raised tattooed dude, who tried his best in participating but felt ostracized. You are not alone dude.

That woman is so kerek. I just wish that I can stay away from her if I have every chance that I can seize.

Tomorrow will be a busy day for my colleagues and I. I must to help them. I must clear my work too.
Thurs, I am going to have lunch at a fantastic place, at least to me. Aslong as it is not Changi Village. Im getting sick of Changi Village food.
Friday, I am going to celebrate with others. What to wear? I need to buy more accessories!

Hmm. My thoughts and feeling for him have take different turn now. There's only one possibility I can think of. My analysis is likely to be true as I can read and understand how the opposite sex view on certain issues or the cause of their actions. Let him be and do whatever he wants as I have learnt my lesson. Henceforth, I shall dismiss any unny thought that may arise in the future.

So tired!

2011-07-18T20:57:00.001+08:00

Unless you have a very very good reason..

Whatever dude..

2011-07-17T21:52:00.001+08:00

turning tables // adele by the importance of being... featuring chanel bags

Thakoon Addition racerback dress, $180
Isabel Marant wool blend jacket, £254
Miu miu clog, £245
Burberry tote bag, £479
Black pearl earrings, £680
TopShop leather belt, $30

I love ADELE'S HAIR. This outfit totallty inspired me what to wear for work. I just need to go scavenge hunt for them.

2011-07-11T20:11:00.002+08:00

I have not keep up with the current affairs for a few months already. So this is one of the news that my mum told me thuis evening. She says that there is a serial killer in Singapore! That is so thrilling. This reminds me of Jack the reaper. Only he did much more worse. I have seen the pictures of Jack's victim. It was horrifying.!

2011-07-10T21:46:00.002+08:00

Why does the CEO of this famous local organisation, dress and talk like so apek?

How can people like them reach that level?

Hmm...

Many employers whom I know, do not give me that first impression / exude the certain kind of aura that what I expect..

Kim Beom <3

What can I do to live to the fullest? My life is so dull! No go out, no life!Its been ages since I've watched movies at cinema. I couldn't even remember when was the last time I went to the cinema.

2011-07-10T21:29:00.002+08:00

I want pieces of land. I want to farm. I want to be a farmer.

Revenues:

- Potatoes
- Tomatoes
- Onion
- Garlic
- Ginger
- Deer
- Seabass
- Oyster
- Aloevera
Many more..

Hmm. Where can I get my capital?

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My Hollywood Screen crush: Keanu Reeves <3<3<3

2011-07-10T01:34:00.003+08:00

My Mr 98% ideal man: Kim Beom

He has almost everything that ladies ever want in guys:

1. Maturity
2. Kind
3. Gentle
4. Romantic

& all of these traits are GENUINE.

I'm not making it up.

Supported by his co workers, as seen in variety shows. He's young but MATURED! That is so rare!! A man with broad time horizon.

Being real, I guess many will agree with me that their Mr or Ms IDEAL deserves someone so much better than themselves. Which is kind of true. Kim Beom is worth of someone who is equally good as him.

2011-07-09T22:03:00.002+08:00

I think guy's eyes are attractive and they are very naked. As if you can see through the guys by just looking at them.

I need to loose weight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-07-08T23:29:00.000+08:00

2011-07-08T21:28:00.002+08:00

My teenage idol crush: Jesse Mc Cartney

One is blind if he or she thinks that Bieber is better than Jesse <3

My youth idol crush: Lee Hongki

Saranghaeyo oppa <3

2011-07-08T18:53:00.002+08:00

How can I be smiling and eating happily here, when i just left a man who was lying weakly on the ground as if half of his body or his legs are paralysed. Well, I did ask him if he was ok. And he replied yeah he was ok. but he did not ask for any help. So I left. Then I heard a boy who just came back from school, asked the man as soon as I left, if he can move. The man said "No". Why he didnt ask for help when I approached him. Oh dear. I just left him there while other people start crowding him. I hope there are people who helped him.

But thinking back, I should do more than just asking. IDIOT me. I really need to develop on my reaction.. or what soever it is

2011-07-06T21:00:00.002+08:00

Ok a lot of things have happened this week. Some of them or in fact most of them have the potential to ruin my week or even a month. They can put me in depression mode, isolation, emotional breakdown, lose confidence. The biggest factor that trigger this 'debacle' would be people's perception and the chance that I passed. Fool me

I must build up my image, nurture good values & characteristics in me and aim to be successful person in life.

Marketing is not for me afterall. I love money. But also I want to enjoy my job and my life as well. That's my definition of 'Live the fullest'.

Now I just need to write down what I want to achieve:

One thing for sure. Lose WEIGHT!!!!

Ok.. This week, I came across trendy stuff in Singapore.

1. During my journey back home, I spot a beautiful young rock chic lady wearing a pair of FLATFORMs!!! These shoes are the in thing in Europe especially at some runway!!

2. Just now, I went to Tampines one and saw this gorgeous dress (89 +bucks; so ex) . It is so SIMILAR to the one BEYONCE wore. It is so 50's. I love the 50's.

2011-07-03T23:50:00.002+08:00

"Fashions fade, style is eternal" - Yves Saint Laurent.

So what's my style??

In order to reform to the new me, I need a 'PURCHASED BOOK' which records all the purchases I made. So Ican keep track of my financial position.

I need a cool notebook.

My eyes and heart have set on this pink blazer and gorgeous pleated palazzo from bysi. Must get them tomorrow! Then I need some handcuffs, bangles, ring, necklaces and 2 pair of shoes. Money no enough leh. Must start business!

I've gained 2kg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My stomach is bloating and on the verge of exploding. I could feel the wall of my intestine and stomach stretching like stuffed sausages in ox's intestine. So painful!!!

2011-07-02T22:21:00.003+08:00

" When I first saw the HDB flat yesterday, I thought, 'And this took me 2 years to study'" - Mika who was here last June for concert (which Dinah & I went to) on Singapore's geography for his A level. (Her World Aug 2010 edition)

How I wish to see you drove past my street!

2011-07-01T22:55:00.003+08:00

Something needs to be changed. I must make my life more exciting, sociable and impactful positively towards other people's lives. Also I must strive for success!

If you are thinking the same thing, let's come on board with me in designing the plan which aims

TO ACHIEVE the NEW YOU / ME:

1. Exercise, so that you remain healthy and helps to keep you in shape thus boost your self esteem, and injecting self confidence in you

2. Be Fashionable, wear stuff which enhances your look. You have one chance in life. What is wrong with wearing fantastic stuff? It can be a little awkward for some of us in the beginning stage, but trust me, it is NORMAL.. After a while, making a statement in your sense of dressing, will influence yours and others lives. You will be amazed on what kind of positive things .an happen. Be AVANT GARDE, BOLD but not arrogant.

3. Smile... and say HI! Nowadays, smiling is not enough for you to leave an impression on people, saying that you are outgoing etc. You need a conversation after or while you are smiling. it can be on anything!

4. Be cool & independent. Show the people around you, that you are not afraid to be alone at gathering. If you find your self in this situation, JUST BE COOL and sit and start talking with people with peope hi are also not engaging themselves in the gathering.

5. Go OUT often. Hang out with friends more often!

So what I must do now is to:

Get myself a set of nice dress for dinner with my friends. Something chic... really modern...
Nice shoes and a black bag! plus hair done

Budget: $300.

Then have a nice dinner with my bff. at a cool place. most prob after work on WED/THURS..

I need to cure this unnestled heart after the Thurs BIG LIE day.

I Love these SONGs!!!

I love the VIDEO!!

2011-06-30T18:06:00.000+08:00

how to make myself sick?

i mean now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-06-30T11:31:00.002+08:00

I want to pursue my new hobby.
It is walking.
Therefore I need a good sandals, shades, umbrella. and nice outfit.

I would lke to adopt another hobby, which is graphic design.. so it can be added to my portfolio for school submission...

This is SO LAME> What am I doing now? THIS IS VERY LAME.

I got exam tis evening and I didn't study..

HOW???????//

TODAY"S PAPER is on LAW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I KNOW NUTS ABT LAW!!!!!!!!

2011-06-25T21:22:00.004+08:00

What if **** ******** is no longer around? What if **** ******** never comes ****? Je never feels appreciat4d from ***. How je wish ** wouldn't live ***** *** **** ****

I really wish I wouldn't grow old like you.

2011-06-25T19:51:00.002+08:00

I am awestruck by the beauty of italian actresses, and th veerans when they were young namely, Anouk Aimee & Catherine Deneuve.

They are among the most beautiful people in my opinion especially the modern day Italian actresses. Now that, is my definition of beautiful. Surely not Jennifer Aniston or Kate Moss.

But I have to agree that Kate Moss is sexy somehow but not beautiful.

Adiosa

2011-06-18T12:10:00.001+08:00

It's the middle of theday and the weather is so cool, free from humidity and bright sunlight. A PERFECT SATURDAY MORNING. WHat more can I ask for. Reminds me of the days in sabah and my secondary school years...

I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!

2011-06-16T23:13:00.003+08:00

If you want to know who has almost the ideal measurement of every part of the body to qualify someone beautiful suggested by scientists, take a look at Shania Twain.

She has what I think every lady and girl deserves to be envy of. She reminds me of beatiful characters from historical romance novels.

She's hot yet ladylike unlike other celebrities.

Dinner and Dance is this Saturday. And my perut is so boncit/ Not to mention my waist line. I don't think I saw any waistline everytime I look into the mirror.

2011-06-14T21:52:00.002+08:00

My inspiration for Dinner and Dance..

2011-06-13T01:08:00.002+08:00

I must do well for tmr!

My sister is so ferocious in her sleep. She tslks in her sleep. She stomps in her sleep. And of course her hands flies herand there and hit my lips with ulcer.

Ok She is creepy when sleeping too. She smiles and whispers in her sleep.

I must do well for tomorrow. Wish me luck. Wish that everything goes smoothly including my dialogues. InsyaAllah. Amin

2011-06-10T22:02:00.003+08:00

I need to stop talking and smiling to myself when I am alone, either at home or in the public. This has to stop. I do not want it to make it a habit that I grow old with. It can induce senility and the chances of getting senile and out of mind are really high when I become older. There is one thing that I really want in life. It is to grow old gracefully and healthily. Madonna and Eunice Olsen are the epitomes of women growing old gracefully.

I am short of money! Dinner and Dance is around the corner, and my trip to Penang falls right after the glamorous night. If I put aside my money for D&D, I will be left with little money for Penang and nothing more. And the money left for Penang only suffice for my food expenses over there. HOW TO SHOP???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

I was planning to shop like mad at Penang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 But now??? I really hope that my mum could lend me her money B) I would like to ask for 300 bucks... hehehhe...

2011-06-05T22:01:00.000+08:00

I like wayching cantonese / hong kong movies... the secret society, the dialect, the cinematography.. i love them all...

2011-06-05T19:47:00.001+08:00

I wanr big money big money. i want to splurgeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... Splurge here and there.

2011-06-04T11:58:00.002+08:00

School sux..........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

2011-06-02T22:28:00.002+08:00

I am in misery.
There aint nobody who can comfort me
Why won't you answer me?
The silence is slowly killing me

Not that I didn't care, it's that I didn't know
It's not what I didn't feel, It's that I didn't show

So let me be, I'll set u free.

These are exactly what I feel right now!

My heart is shattered now. You have made me gobbled chocolate birthday cake down my throat and almost all the rice crackers I have tonight. You have made me ore wary of your kind. Thanks for everything

2011-06-01T22:08:00.002+08:00

He didn't reply me :(

Don't tell me...

ahhhh.

Everytime I look at the phone and see no 'new message', do you know how anxious I can get?

2011-06-01T03:07:00.002+08:00

I have grown horizontally. Really. No Kidding!!! One of my acquaintances asked me, "Fairus, what have you been eating for the past week?" >_< (I was like: OK!!!!!!! Understood!)

I had chocolate cakes around 9 plus in the evening today,I mean yesterday.. Ahhhh.. how to go out with him?

No sms from him today! I mean he did, but they are not enough. This leaves me another hanging thought... Where did I go wrong?

2011-05-31T01:02:00.003+08:00

So we talked for more than 1 hour.
He is an honest guy.
But one thing that bothers me is that he admitted that he had approached other girls before.
The bright side is that he admitted. The ugly side that he approached someone else before. What does that make me?

But another charming side of him is that he is attending taranum classes with his family. He ngaji and solat etc. So charming.

And another thing..
My assignment is due today. It has minimum of 3000 words!!! I haven't start a single thing!

2011-05-29T15:53:00.003+08:00

oh dear.. I have put my reputation at stake.

Why did I miss call him twice especially yesterday night too? Dear.. He needed rest and I disturbed him.

Ok today he hasnt smsed. Why? Why he likes to leave my thought hanging?

I am only gg to sms him tmr.

This Thursday, Mr Benny is coming for placement exercise! I have never seen him. He mentioned that we could have coffee together next time he comes down to prison. Hmm.. I'm not joining the placement. I wonder how he looks like. I hope he does not get pissed off by the number of problems brought up by the boys whom I referred to him.

Found this on Style website:

Cuff by Stella McCartney. Totally Awesome!

2011-05-28T03:29:00.005+08:00

The school is giving me a HUGE headache. I shall keep to my principle = go with the flow.

Ok I really need to run.
I must shed the extra pounds.
I must get nice clothes too.
Not to mention shoes, bags and accessories.

These are what I have been searching high and low around Singapore. If you know where I could get them in Singapore, please tell me!!!

Aren't they chic and cool?

Taken from http://www.modedamour.com

It's someone's blog which I really adore.

2011-05-27T00:50:00.001+08:00

oooh dear.. this is so not me.. i .. i feel so kekokkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.............

2011-05-23T10:15:00.001+08:00

No wonder, I do not feel like coming today:(

ANd There is a hole at my cuff.. ;(

2011-05-20T21:53:00.003+08:00

I never think that I would fall for someone like him. But I do now. I like him. Oh dear. This is not good. I must eradicate this feeling. Or else, this will affect my... For the first time I like someone whom I know (not by just status e.g. friend, but by mingling with him), whom I never think I would have romantical feeling towards him, whom I think I really.... know him. He is a very nice guy. The word 'nice' I am using has a very deep meaning although it seems a simple word. I just do not know how to underscore it more. I get slightly jealous when he is talking comfortably/joking with his female friends.

Maybe because he is everyone's friend. But I think I know now.. I am attracted to someone whom I can be really comfortable with. He has the humor, brain, maturity, rationality and I do not think I will get bored around him. In fact I do enjoy every second with him.

Oh dear I need to stop!!!!!! The more I think about this, the more more overpowering this emotion becomesl. I must.. MUST keep our relationship professional.

Although, he is short like me, quite plump, small eyes, I never ever consider that as a turnover. What really turn me down are that he still drinks... even when he already pledged to change. He ate khinzir, gambles occasionally and didn't go friday prayers etc. And i do not think he is a virgin too.. The flaws are too huge for me to accept unless he is non muslim. But I just like him.. No... I do not.. and must not like him!!!!!!

My 345th Post

2011-05-18T21:11:00.002+08:00

Today my confidence level is at the optimum level despite of my unkemptness, my ugly outfit, my almost without make up-face. I went to the lingerie department on my own will for the FIRST TIME... Yeah no kidding. I approached the friendly China staff and said straight to her face that I had no idea what is my size. She was kind enough to measure for me at the vicinity where there were guys and ladies were passing by. I did not feel any ounce of shyness. I was not shy about my size, about where I was being measured, unlike in the past.

So you all must be wondering, who bought lingerie for me all these while? My MUM of course...

Ok.. So back to my first experience buying lingerie proudly alone. I was finding the right brooo since most of the brooo are padded. Hmm. No thank you.. Its like giving free show for the opposite sex. I was also quite shocked because I could not find the one with affordable price. I ended up buying 2 for $60.. Erkkk. My first purchase. I could have bought a top, which can be seen by people.. Nevertheless, I'm cool with that price as I appreciate the quality of my purchase. And I know that they will boost my self esteem making me feel more confident as ever.

Next stop was Delifrance at Lot 1. I made some order for Sunday event. It was a spontaneous decision and move. I wouldnt imagine of accomplishing what I did today. Hmm. Some of you may wonder what is my motive of writing this? My answer would be: To reflect what I had done, which can help to raise my confidence level.. Well you should try too.. It's a healthy thing to do.

Speaking of which, I was defeated by the accessibility of fast food. I ate one large fries, seasoned with sodium rich substances for dinner. If I had known, I would have eaten at WENDY!!!!!!!!!!

2011-05-16T08:46:00.002+08:00

I detest you for calling my name like that. You are not my boss. Even my bosses do not call me in that tone. Another similar kind of her.

Haiiizzz... Why must I be sensitive in small matters? Maybe my hormones is imbalanced right now.

And I do not like any sort of reactions come from the people I am not fond of. Their reactions somehow just get under my skin.

Ce Ma fey shia

2011-05-14T22:16:00.003+08:00

ATTENTION: Anybody wants to go to SABAH with me??? Preferably after Raya (Aug)

PLEASE RSVP me at fairuskunyit@live.com

PS: It will be a great experience!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-05-01T20:41:00.002+08:00

you are just being plainly irritating. and insensitive. SHUT UP! I feel a tornado in me swirling around violently. that I want to.... ERRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH.... please lah... Speak for yourself!!!... SHUTTTT UPPPP

2011-04-17T20:11:00.002+08:00

Oh dear. One of my best primary school friends has a few things which I have always wanted. She got what I want to achieve when I grow older. She gets my desire job.!! Its like a boy who always wanted to be an astronaut but his dream is dashed due to his bad decision making in his juvenile years and then his long time friend got to be an astronaut. DO YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

I feel horrible! I feel wasted!! Only God knows how I dislike feeling wasted.

I really feel down because of this. DO you know how much she could earn in Singapore with that job? GoSH!! I could splurge that money on fine stuff. I could bring the whole family to Greece, France, Spain and Mecca, after saving for a couple of months.

All things that happened have their own reason. Maybe .... Hmm. A lot of things is popping in my mind. Good great!

Anybody wants to dine with me ? I feel so bored and random!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-04-16T20:24:00.002+08:00

What shall I wear on next next monday? 25th April ...

Should I buy the nude blazer? Then it will cut my current money I have tremendously. I need to buy nude shoes too.!!
I need to buy that degree-less spec too. but I feel shy to buy them myself.

I was thinking of buying that short-like-skirt. If I could find a nice dress. I would have bought it. I want that mango dress on the website. But it has not arrived in Singapore yet! Great :(

I need something colourful. I believe this coming trend, is all about colours!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I need bright colour outfits!!!

I am so sick of wearing black and grey and navy blue. But I LOVE navy BLUE!!!!!!!!!!!
Need to plan my finance carefully!!!

2011-04-15T22:22:00.003+08:00

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

WHAT HAPPENED IF YOU ARE BEING TOO SENSITIVE, IRRATIONAL, MISINTERPRET OTHER'S MEANING W/O THINKING OF MANY OTHER REASONS aka shallow, narrow-minded.???

Ans: CONFLICT

MIND FUCKING

I STRONGLY THINK THAT THIS CONFLICT/ARGUMENT is sooo STUPID.

2011-04-13T23:02:00.002+08:00

Its like DMC all over again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love DMC, but I always have this fear when...

And it is happening right now.......

I was laughing like mad just now and then received sms which delivers that same old fear. It is my fault. And now he is mad. Haish .. How ? He wants explanation.! I dun mind saying it my fault. But what was my reason? I was so busy helping to finish some other jobs that I totally forget about what to do. HAush such a dilemma. Cant wait for this tis week to end.

2011-04-11T20:49:00.003+08:00

I got a story to share with my mum. Its about my encounter in the morning. But I couldn't share because I am just not good in telling story. I will just make the story complicated and incoherent. Also it is a sad reality which I do not like sharing. It reflects the malay kids nowadays.

"Wahai Tuhan ku yang maha penyayang , lagi maha kaya. Kau bangkitkanlah masyarakat Melayu Singapura ini dan juga Kau berikanlah mereka kesenangan di dunia dan juga di akhirat nanti. Amin"

Im not rebuking myself. But this song is so me. I'm a bit of everything. All rolled into one.

2011-04-10T17:07:00.001+08:00

I like guys in pastel.I think they look chic and trendy.

http://houston.culturemap.com/stylefile/detail/david_modesett/

2011-04-06T21:03:00.002+08:00

I DID VERY BADLY FOR MY FIRST SEMESTER!!! WHAT IS THIS
? I need to repeat the modules and pay 1.6k for the modules. Herggh!( This is the most probable outcome that I have to face in near future.) I just knew I did badly! Like how i knew my A level results were going to be. I never submit assignment.. So ridiculous! I am so undiscipline! (Is there even have such word) Gosh! I need to do some intellect-exercise How could I even dream of advising the inmates of my age??? At least I knew what is important for survival unlike them. Ok I am so prejudice. They are 19-21 years old already!! So hard to change them. Haish trap in vicious cycle. But some I really pity them. Well they became like that of their family! There is clearly something wrong with the Malay community!!!

Haish. Can Mendaki and Muis do something more? I do not care if it requires some socialism approach. Get what I mean?

Anyway.. I am so honoured to do some important task. I was able to talk and interact with high ranking officers like friend friend. And I had great companions for lunch too:PPP Love that moment. They make me feel so me.. I can free myself.

On the flipside of the coin, I do not like the departing session. They (Diff people) made me feel so AWKWARD and left me in doubts, confusion, discomfort and ousted!!! I'd rather go home late and take the public transport!!

But so far I have not heard anything from the middle management level about... That too leaves me in skeptics about their view on me. Where did I go wrong?

2011-04-05T22:32:00.002+08:00

IF YOU DON'T KNOW THE MEANING OF THE WORD, THEN DO NOT SAY IT.

EVERY WORD WILL HAVE ITS OWN CONSEQUENCES. STOP BEING IRRATIONAL..AND RASH. REFLECT ON YOURSELF!

2011-04-03T21:57:00.005+08:00

Had a gratifying and happening Saturday. Thks Girls.

Anyway Why all the singers in MBLAQ are so so so HOT? And cool and charismatic? They make me fall in love with dances. I would buy tickets just to see them dance or to any dance show. preferably pop dance. is there such thing? ouh well. i just want to watch a racy dance!!!

2011-03-30T23:58:00.002+08:00

WHYYYY are all MBLAQ's songs are just purely sexyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. The melody, the rythm, the lyrics, the note, the voices and the singers SARANGHAEYO...

This is such a classic backfired case. I used to think korean bands fans were obssessive and swayed in their dream land. I also find that Korean boy bands too skinny,too pretty, look kust like girls. NOw my views on them are totally the opposite. I find them hot. I find them well and healthily built, and it is just me who is fat, not them. I find them so charismatic and coool. Super duper cool and charming and manly yet kind, well-mannnered and hot.

Looking forward to meet the girls

2011-03-28T23:39:00.003+08:00

Its JON SECADA's night~~~~~~~~ I love Lurfff. looovvve his songs. gerek habis!!

I've been deafening myself with Korean Songs. They are so nnnnnnnnniiiiiiiiiiiiccccceeeeeeee to hesr. I also find singers who sing 'Y' by Mblaq is so sexxxyy. The chorus and voice are just toooooooooooooooooooooo sssseeeeeexxxxxxxxxxxyyyyyyyyyy. Seriously, both combination melt me or to be more impolite, turrrrrnnnnnnnnnn me onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

LISTEN TO THE YYYYYYYYYY AIIIIIII!! The chorus + the voices = Ultimate hotness

Its the 90s!!!!!

2011-03-27T23:00:00.001+08:00

I LOVE TO WATCH THE GREAT KING SEJONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE SHOW ROXXXXXXXXXXXX!!!!!!!!!!

Now watching!! Shhhhheeeeeeeeeessssssssssshh.

2011-03-27T19:01:00.002+08:00

Its really nice to hear songs from Mblaq esp 'Cry' in this gloomy weather. I lost my iPod again!!! What is this. I need iPod to run.. I need to hear Mblaqqqqqqq and Beast and Miss a for me to carry on............

2011-03-25T19:55:00.002+08:00

I am a victim of KOREAN WAVE!!!!! I love them to the max............... I love the idols..... they are like super maxi duper ultimate cooooool. and they are like my age. They are just SUPER DUPER VERY ULTIMATE COOOOOOOL. I like Miss A, Beast (Which i used to find their fans are excessive, fanatic, silly wise. Now I am one of them), MBLAQ, FT Island. Super Junior, SECRET, 2PM. and MANY MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!

Ok.. My cousin who is still single, available and slimmm and solehah. just received her bonus.. Guess how much????

13k.. not 1.3 k. its 13 k. wholly..

Hooooh.

2011-03-21T23:24:00.002+08:00

I will be lucky if I pass. Please please!!!

Exams this week. Cant wait for weekends.. Hmmm. I am going to indulge my Saturday baby!. Pedicure or movie??????? Hmmmmmmmm. Anybody wanna joins? Please contact me at my mobile no. SMS..

2011-03-20T21:06:00.004+08:00

He likes someone else!!!!!.. Why now? Why now I like him?/.herkk herkk herkkh.. I finally found someone whom I really like after maturing...and after someone. I know exactly what I am looking for. He's ok-looking and lacks of height..but something about him draws me so strongly. I like the way he speaks. The way he thinks. The way he interacts. The way he looks at people. The way he smiles. He is so civilised yet homey.

2011-03-20T01:34:00.004+08:00

ouh nooooooooo. he likes someone else.............

And if you ever fall in love again
You must be sure that the lady is a friend
And if you ever fall in love so true
You must be sure that she feels the same way too

2011-03-20T00:18:00.004+08:00

i like to privatise some parts of my life.

I didnt realise how charming, charismatic, handsome, smart, fun, kind, man-ly my seniors are until recently. They are so attractive in their own waysssssssssssssss. Simply, so attractive.

Anyway. the mustang in this video really reminds me of the black mustang I saw recently at Changi!!

For him and the mustang:

This is for him too: (It should be..."baby when i heard you for the first time after a few years, i knew..." -in my case)

2011-03-18T00:53:00.005+08:00

Just read this news.:

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Ok weird. Look at the thumbs up and thumbs down. after every comment.

I like Indonesia very much. But sorry to say this. I think they should use the 2 million dollars to help the people who lives in the suburb areas. They should help those who are trying to make ends meet by taking the cooled sulphur from volcanoes even when they are risking their lives. They need to know the hardship of these people. Those workers breathe in harmful toxic gases and need to climb up and down of the rough volcanic mountains carrying the heavy sulphur w/o proper accessories. They need to put off invisible/luminous flame so that the cooled sulphur wont melt. There are a lot of smokes and sometimes the generators that they use to pump water to put off fire, are not working. Their lungs get damaged. Their shoulder deformed with bruises and pus built-up due to the heavy weight. and they wear rubber slippers while climbing the rough surface of the mountains. Simply, they need help. Their workplaces need to be improved.Or at least, provide them with proper accessories and gadgets. And raise their pay. This is how the 2 million bucks should be spent.

"Over My Shoulder" - Mike + The Mechanics 'Beggar...' - Promo Clip 1994

2011-03-17T22:44:00.000+08:00

Oh dear, looking back at my old posts, I realised that my English usage is deteriorating, especially the previous post. Ok readrs, give me chance to clear my image. I have my reason. The reason is, i was too sleepy at that moment.

Cakap punya cakap pasal looking back, it reminds me of Mike & mechanic...

2011-03-16T23:09:00.002+08:00

Im suffering from imnnalance hormones thanks to the food im eating. All the GM food, food adddictives etc etc. I get so upset easily when my aim to run does nt achieve for quite sometime. Plus the loss of my ipod.. yeah againnnn.(I feel like slapping myself), really adds on to my discontentment. I HATE THIS PART RIGHT HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My fats are trippling or mor.. This is so frustrating!!!!!!!! ANd exams next week arent helping at all.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-03-09T20:32:00.002+08:00

I am going to make myself like a stranger to you.

I am not going to stain my mouth with bad words that you made me said. I AM GOING TO BE IGNORANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY DO YOU ALWAYS PAINT ME IN A BAD LIGHT??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

I just wish that you can reflect on this. and think how its affecting me

2011-03-09T19:41:00.000+08:00

FUCK BIG TIME. ASS........

2011-02-28T08:53:00.001+08:00

I am dumbfounded.. I must WORK HARD FROM NOW ON!!!!!!!!!!! Must prove them that I can do it. I am not going to let that e-mail ruins my day.. Think positively.. You can do this Fairus!!!!

2011-02-27T23:29:00.003+08:00

I'm SO FEDDDDDDDDD UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You want it.. I'll show it to YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU. And then Dun tell me how to do it!!!!!!! Because your way will never get my job done!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You always pick on the small thing that I did and make it a big issue.And you have never consider my situation. WHat time I leave home, what time I reach home.. What I have contributed etc.... You never appreciate my help!!!!!!!! No one sides me. I feel so unwanted, unimportant at the place where I shouldn't feel that way. This is misery..

2011-02-26T21:31:00.002+08:00

Must visit Syamile chalet at Kuala Kangsar.

Anyway I met a beautiful lady today. I thought she is Philipino but then she spoke Indonesian. So conclusion: A rich lady from Indonesia.

Today I had presentation. I am afraid I am leaving negative images to team mates.. I hope they forgive me and do not mind what I did. I need to delete whatever email that reminds me of them. Sayang sekali. They are good people whom I can mix well with if I had shown my commitment. Screw me lah.. Whatever happened, happened lahh..

2011-02-25T00:52:00.001+08:00

He's such a dilligent boy who prioritises his tasks despite his work, and that will make me look like I am a slacker. Hmmm. Ya have to admit that I am a slacker. I keep delaying my work this past 2 weeks. I need a sense of urgency!! Also must prove to him that I am a capable woman and who knows what quality and standards are. dahlah hesem, kaya, rajin, soft spoken, non-smoker, kind and owns own's transportation. And I sat beside him some more.. ooh. this drives me to work harder to prove my values in the group. But I am not having a crush on him. That's weird. But hooray because this shows that I am maturing!!!

Pak Lebai has a very beautiful pair of eyes. His wife is an arab-pakistani mix woman. Must be beautiful.

Today was a fun day at cluster unlike the previous day. I will never forget that moment.

And today, I met a super duper cute, innocent, shy guy. I Ate nasi lemak at cluster. Simply shiokk

2011-02-21T20:25:00.002+08:00

My project is on handphone.. And I am such a chump in phone technologies. Frankly speaking, I still do not know android. What is android? Ok I sound so stoopit. But yah.. What is symbian etc etc.... I need to pull this through!!!!... To me, a phone that can make call, sms, bluetooth ,radio and has wifi are more than enough for me. I rarely use other applications in my phone. But seriously, I need my hp badly this week because I need to make important phone calls and send /reply important messages. However, I could not find my charger!!!! How am I gg to charge my hp????????????????????????????? I need to use it urgently this week. Not COOL!!!!!!!!!!

2011-02-08T19:58:00.002+08:00

Ok my ipod arrived today. Woah that was fast. BUT.. there was no one there to receive it and my father has arranged to another delivery to be made on 10 feb. Why?? why not tmr????? Patient my dear.

2011-02-07T23:31:00.002+08:00

I care very dearly for every object that I own, especially the one that I bought with my own money and the one that I NEED to use. People may think I am sloppy sometimes and asal boleh type, but the truth is the opposite. If any of my items are lost or damaged or contaminated by other people, I will feel the sudden anger that burst verociously mixed with sadness. Do you know how pain that is to the bearer?

It's a waste. And I hate to the max about feeling wasted.

I will never forget the pain, that the culprit has caused.

I want FULL REIMBURSEMENT plus incentives.

I gave warning, but no one cares. And when such devastated things happen, I do not care whatever excuses or responses I receive. I only want my compensation!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-02-05T13:19:00.003+08:00

Two items on their way baby..
My concern now is I do not think I will be there to receive my item..

Ok.. now no more shopping!! except for one pair of sandals, trousers and blouse. Then no more!!! No more Fairus!!!

2011-02-04T14:01:00.003+08:00

Ashraf Muslim... Where on Earth can I find a man like him? Recently, he immersed himself in the Islamic studies especially in the 'Perubatan secara Islam'.. Wahhhhhhhh.. With a man like him, I will feel so secure.. from the evilness of setan and their hulu balang. But I am pretty sure, I am not his type ;( Another plus factor about him, is that he is also getting more careful with his words, which I like...

2011-02-03T10:13:00.002+08:00

THis is my 303th post. Why everytime 303 one? But I like odd no, so i like.

Ok So today I woke up at 10 am sharp after more than a decade, waking up earlier than that. Record sia.

What's with the sia thing? Maybe I get it from one of Aisha's multi-mode way of talking. haha.. No offence.

And guess what? Today's morning weather is fantastic especially for RUNNING!!!!!! I seriously need to work out. But who wants to take care of my sister? ? And my stomach area feels so heavy. So difficult to run. I guess I shall start small first... At home.

2011-01-30T20:33:00.002+08:00

orang ce ye nun alif ni looks down on malay people. Dia ingat jual buah tu, boleh kaya sangat ke. purlease..Sungguh cetek ilmu. Singapore does not need people like you.

Anyway... I'm so excited for tomorrow. I'm coming home late tomorrow. I'm planning to go shopping.. at Raffles City, Bugis Junction, Bras Basah complex and Bugis street.I need apparels.

I want wellies!!!!!!!!

2011-01-29T21:45:00.005+08:00

My father said the vertical farming technology is not new!!! Korea has developed such technology for years already. And Singapore claimed that:

PLease lah. I want to comment something about Singapore. But I am too afraid. There could be spy bugs in the network. I feel like I am in jail in disguise. I used to be so proud to be a Singaporean but now I am thinking more than twice about my feeling. I can't wait to be 21, to be eligible for the election. I think I know who to vote. I do not want leaders who are hypocrite.

I admire a number of leaders in a party but I am disappointed in a few or one leader(s) from that same party. The best solution is to migrate. I am looking at the prospect in Finland. I wonder if there are racial or religion discrimination over there.. I love the education system there. I want my kids and myself to be happy when my kids are at school. I do not want to worry so much about my kids or the discrimination they face at school just because they do not come from schools that are located at CBD. You know what I mean?

2011-01-28T18:50:00.002+08:00

Ahh.. my feet stink. This has greatly limited my social activities and my confidence.

Ok today, I visited prison cluster A. I was excited but then my ethusiasm faded quickly as soon as I stepped into the compund. I wore a wrong dress code. No 3/4 pants and I was being tegur by this prison officer. they are nice. but i do not like the feeling in the prison at all. so yeah. one time visit is enough for me.

2011-01-26T23:57:00.002+08:00

I cannot imagine wheere I am in the future. And the back of my right lower limb is bisa. Do you know what I am thinking. Selisih. Ya Allah Ya tuhanku.. Kau panjangkanlah umur hambamu ini dan kurniakanlah hambamu ini kesihatan ya Allah. Amin Ya Rabbal Ala'min

2011-01-26T23:14:00.002+08:00

I need joy and I got it. I hope that it stays the same or even better for the rest of my stay here.

Dr. Poh is really funny. I love his class. I do not mind if he really criticizes my work.. I mean, we all learn from mistakes. He's a good teacher and he seems to know a lot of people from different organisation..

2011-01-26T10:19:00.001+08:00

Ouhhh.. I cannnot.. CANNOT HAVE ANY soft spot on a married guy.. NEVER!!! its OUTRAGEOUS!!!

You Learn

2011-01-23T19:46:00.000+08:00

2011-01-23T08:21:00.002+08:00

I have not been getting enough sleep. I am so fatigue right now. And my father broke the silence of Sunday Morning with his loud demanding voice.. He expected me to prepare my sister who was going to my aunt house. So I clothed her with my eyes still shutting down. Then when came to her bag, I had no idea where was her madrasah bag. And my sister has been so clueless. sHE didnt know where her bag was. and i have to search for high nand low for it whi9le she stood there. I got frustrated. Hello she should atleast helped me find or combed her hair at that time or what. at least do something. Then I baarked at her to find her baag. Suddenly I had this feeling that my mum already had brought the bag. Indeeed it wsb true. My sister vwent to my aunt hse with her madrasa bag on fri with my mum, and she forgotten. My father started to bark at me. He told me to call my aunty. He barked at me for that and then the phone rang, I didnt want to pick up, after the bad morning. He barked at me again buut from outside of the house. Did he want to make this public? He expected me to know where my sister bag was etc, even when my mum didnt telll me beforehand. And I am lethargic now. I know that all my neighbours know that I always got scolding due to the shouting even at 20 yrs old. it is already embarrassing enough.. To make things worse my neighbours whom surrounded me are MUslim families with children of my age. Why are my parents so loud?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? Im tired now............................................................................................................................

2011-01-22T11:29:00.004+08:00

I have some issues with the slides and the cover page. They are not professionally done. This ticks me..

hmm. hoo. breathe in..

I shall confront with them as nicely and professionally as I can be, through email.

2011-01-18T20:38:00.004+08:00

He's so nice, cool, kind and sincere. No wonder he's the CEO. Well-deserved to be the CEO.

She's so tall, beautiful, slim, kind, down to earth, clever and rich... Wow...

I think I have finally found a lifestyle that I love. Nice and people who are alike, around me. Nice, serene, green place... I've got a balance environment. I mean.. woww. I love it. But it is too soon for me to love it because I do not know what the future holds for me. I love everyone. I love everywhere. I hope they love me too.

In the afternoon I suddenly felt the dejavu as if that moment was recurring. And then I remembered when I have felt as if I was in that situation just now. That moment was from my ream that I have so many years ago. It just triggers in my mind. Masya'Allah.

Islam is so great. According to Islamic scholars, dreams are also like a medium or a portal where we are brought to the future. Wow.. Now I believe so. I just hope that not majority of my dreams come to reality because most of them are not a really good dreams.
Especially this year.

Dreams... I have always been amazed with dreams because they are so powerful. I think dreams are a complex matters. They can mean a lot of thing...They sometimes are like the signs of the future, which cannot be avoided. Thus it can be scary most of the times. They can also....

Ouh have to go now. Need to settle school work...